Ummmm.....yeah
Okay, here we go. Yes, I will admit that I have a bad habit of finding cute guys I can not have. But I really cant help myself. Yes. PR is cute, but I will not lie not as cute as those two, BV or MM. BV I talk to hours on end and with MM I talked to him for an hour just last night. I know it is never going to happen with me and BV, but for some reason in the back of my head, that won't go away no matter how hard I try, I feel like it Could happen, even though I know it wont. BV does not read my blog, if he did I do not know what he would say. He does know of it and that I write about him, and he is okay with that. He thinks it is great that I have somewhere to vent my feelings. AK knows pretty much Everything about me, like no joke. She has her thoughts and her opinions about it I am sure, but she really hasn't told me what she thinks. When we go out on our outing to shop, lunch, and talk I will try and make it a point that I would like to know what she thinks. Then, I will let you guys know everything that she says. Lately I have been feeling more distant of BV. He calls sometimes and I don't even feel like picking up... I don't know what to say to that one. He is a best friend that I love with all my heart, I think I want a relationship, but deep down I know I could never go out with him. Even if I had the chance to, I am not sure if I would or not. I believe in what my horoscope is, and I believe things like that. I am an Aquarius and he is a Leo. They are supposed to be great together, long time relationships and longtime friendships. He was born on the 5th, which is where the friendship part comes in, not relationship. If he was born on the 4th, then we would have possibly had a relationship. I am not sure. But I was also curious to see our name compatability, and it is 86%. I know that really doesn't mean anything, but I was just curious. And today I will make my journey through my life, moving forward, and Never looking back. I will not get my hopes up to have a relationship with BV, nor will I expect anything to happen. I promise myself.
Love
Andrew Bennett
Andrew a horoscope can be a fun hobby, but don't plan your love life around it cos it is not scientifically valid. Do you think lots of str8 guys have their frustrations in their pursuits of girls? They can often go through a long process before getting sexual with a girl. BV is interested in you. If you meet with him and talk with him for hours then you are already going out with him. But if he acts like a skirt chaser and is always talking about wanting to have sex with girls then he will just be a good str8 friend. If not, then see where it goes; don't count yourself out.
ReplyDelete-As a gay guy be sure to improve yourself physically; too many teens today are sedentary and not getting enough exercise. Good old fashioned jogging for 1/2 to 1hr a day gets amazing results and gets easy as time passes and you get more fit. And you feel so good after. bfn - Wayne :)(the pic is a nice touch!)
Oh Andrew, the pain of unrequited love. I know that pain, and I know how helpless you feel to do anything about it. I guess one part of me thinks you should push it as far as you can with BV. You know it will never be enough, but better to live without regrets about what could have been. Just be prepared. He will reject you at some stage, and that will hurt more than anything. If you think you can get through that, then live for the moment and enjoy what you can get out of it now.
ReplyDeleteNow, if only I had've followed my own advice...