Sunday, February 20, 2011

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My feelings with BV go wayyy beyond just sex. They are emotions after emotions with him. I may want sex but love and emotions come FIRST.. I love him. I really do but he will never realize what I could do for him or what I would do for him. he doesn't know how good I would be with him. How Good I would treat him or what I would do. Litterally I would cut off every one of my fingers one by one to be with him. I would die to save his life. I would shoot myself in the head if that meant he could live longer. Right now I am having issues obvioulsy and I just told him I need a few days to get back to who I was. I am so hurt and so sad and mad and he knows how I feel. He can't do anything about it. He is "straight" yeah.. so whatever. I really don't give a crap anymore. I wish I could go back in time and never meet him. If I had never met him I wouldnt be so messed up in the head and I would be normal again. Love Andrew Bennett <33
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  1. WayneFebruary 21, 2011 at 10:25 AM

    I wouldn't say that your love is entirely unrequited; BV has already said on more than one occasion that he has love for you, but that may be on a friendship level if he still has sexuality issues. All you can do is stay good friends with him and see where it goes, but Andrew there are other gay guys out there so don't become too fixated on one person. Str8 guys have the same love issues as you over girls so don't think being str8 will cure the problem which is lovesickness; that aching desire for a person that tortures you. Best to circulate and make new friends and expand your possibilities. But don't punish BV with moodiness cos that is not fair to him. Getting out and enjoying some daily physical activity also helps your mood and gets your mind off yourself. Anyone looking for love can have these issues so you are not alone. bfn - Wayne (will this winter ever go away lol?)

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  2. AnonymousFebruary 21, 2011 at 11:19 PM

    OK, Andrew, chill for a minute. Nothing I've seen in your comments suggests that you have only sexual wants for BV, though many of us have made sure to comment that sex shouldn't be first and foremost.

    And I think I mentioned in a comment that only in English is LOVE interpreted in only one way: sex. Love, in almost every other language, has many meaning, and has many words for it.

    BV is also a teenager. The range of teenage "love" and its many connotations is as wide as an ocean. I truly understand your love for BV, but I also kinda think that perhaps you are pushing him a bit.

    Distance yourself if you need to. Stay a friend. I keep preaching. Friendship first, all the rest later.

    Andrew, you're a good guy. Keep that in mind, too.

    Peace <3
    Jay

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