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Okay guys.. I have good news and bad news. I know my last post says my grandma is not going to make it, but my mom just called me and said they just moved her out of ICU to a regular room. She has gotten better overnight. It is a miracle and I know it is the work of my Lord! Thank You God. Thanks to everyone who has prayed for her and my family. Okay.. the bad news is I am still upset about BV. I cried again today, and last night at church I cried for about 10 minuets. I can't help myself, I am in Love. I Love him! So someone on formspring asked me if I pitched or catched.. ummm.. i said y would u ask me this on formspring? and no one said anything back. So, I am going to forget about it. But anyway I went to BV's house last night on my bike to say hi for about 15 mins and then i went home, he had been at my house earlier yesturday after school. Then today he came over for a couple hours. It was fine, but I cried again in front of him. He tries to help me, he really does, and it kills him to see me like that. Also, this friend of mine, well thought she was a friend, was mad,.. SV. She saw BV sitting with a girl today on the bus and they were "leaning" on eachother.. the girl who was in his seat was AW.. some nasty hoe. (she had sex with her cousin) And so she was mad at BV and i tried to explain to her again for the millionth time, we are not together, even though I wish we were. Then he called her a couple of names, and then she was like fine then i am done and out of BV's life and Buddy's life. i said what did I do? She said u let him talk to me like that. I was like whatever, he took the phone and wouldnt give it back, this was all in txts.. and then she never txted back. oh and KP a friend of mine too, slapped BV really hard i guess for me.. cuz he broke my heart.. I am happy, haha, but not. I love him still, even if he broke my heart, i will always love him. and he knows that.. <33 have to wake up at 345am to go to the airport.. fun!... NOT. So I am going to lay down and see if I can catch some Z's.. Goodnight.!Love Andrew Bennett <33
Good news about your grandma, it's great that yopu're still visiting and will be able to talk to her and so on. Treasure the time with her that remains.
ReplyDeleteIt's a hard choice, if you keep seeing BV your heart strings will keep on being tugged, if you distance yourself to avoid it, you'll lose a great friend.
Those silly dramas, don't you hate them. To say BV broke your heart suggests that he did wrong. He didn't, he just can't love you in the way you love him.
Life is tenacious so never count someone out; I hope your grandmother makes a full recovery. As for BV, well please remember that getting hung up on one person prevents you from looking around. Try and remain friends with BV and catch him on the rebound if he doesn't work out with girls. Girls love to gossip too so be careful what you say around them. Before crying too much over a guy, try and imagine him fat and bald at 30 lol, cos we all change over the years especially if we ignore maintenance! bfn - Wayne :)
ReplyDeleteI didn't get to comment on your earlier post, but I saw it just before I commented here, so wow. From near death to on the way back. Yes, thank you God for your grandmother getting better.
ReplyDeleteRemember this, too, Andrew. God controls a lot. If He wanted BV to be your boyfriend, he would be. So be content, as hard as it will be, to be happy that you have such a great friend. I know a lot of guys would reject you completely if they knew you wanted more than he was willing to give, so he must care a lot about you as a friend, if not a BOYfriend.
Oh, and now you know why Formspring is such a stupid thing. I say, either let people ask questions in your blog comments, and answer them here, or not. You don't need to put up with the pervs who care about your sex life in that way. Ugh.
Peace <3
Jay