So, a few days ago, well maybe like a week ago, I met some new guy. He is really cute and gay. I was starting to look at him like many gay or bi guys do, and then I talked to my friend and I said what is his name. Well, you all know I do not use names, but his initials are PA. I said does he have a facebook? No he does not. Then I went home, and forgot all about PA. Then I was driving home from Jacksonville, which I will get side tracked for a second and tell you what happened... Okay. So I was going to the UPS store, which was closed by the time I got there, UGH and so I pulled out of the parking space, turned and as I turned a little old lady was walking across the road holding her medication from CVS. So, Being a nice gentleman like I am, I let her cross. As she finnished crossing, I proceded to go, and as soon as I hit the gas, a stupid man pulls out in front of me.. I was about 6 inches away from hitting him, He is lucky I slammed on the brakes! I should have hit him. But then, I honked and flipped him the bird and called him an A hole. Then I drove away, thinking nothing of it. Then, at the stop light, I see in my rearview miror that man coming up to my wndow. And it was about 75 degrees outside, so naturally I had the window all the way down. I start to roll it up. Then he knocks on the window and says Police get out of the car. Now I am not stupid okay. I said Let me see your badge, through the window. He said PULL OVER! AND GET OUT OF THE CAR! I said show me some ID. Then the light turned green and I gunned it down the road, got away from him and got home. Okay, back to the original story. So I got home from Jacksonville and I see on the side of the road that friend and another friend of mine. I have one persons number but not the other, the one i want to talk to about PA. So I get his number and right now I am texting him. Then came the question how old is PA, well he is too young for me! Dang it! Dang it! Dang it! Oh well, he is still cute. lolLove Andrew Bennett <33
Hello everyone! Today was a pretty okay day. Last night I went to BV's house and hung out with him for about 2 hours or so. Then I went home and went to sleep.. I slept LATE for once! I slept until 1pm. Which may be too much but it was much needed I think. Then, I just hung around the house until 3 ish and then I went to work. Now, I just got home. BV called me on the way home, but he had to hang up cuz a cop was following me. He hasn't called me back yet. I have a feeling he will soon. I don't know. it is different now. When I am away from him, I don't feel the same way I use to. I feel like okay, so what he is just my friend, I really don't like him like I use to. But when I am around him, it all goes back to where it use to be. I don't know. I mean I love him, but I don't. It is so confusing me, but I really need to move on. I don't remember if I already told you guys this, but I asked a girl to prom.. i think I did, but she said no... but thats only because she told her cousin she would take him, because he is a sophmore and she wanted him to go.. But she told me to still go because she wants to hang out with me. She also said we should hang out more in general. But the thing is I think she likes me but I don't like her like I thought I might like her :/ I don't know. Haha.. I am like all over the place tonight. But anyway, How are all of you doing? I am curious to know. I know a lot of you have blogs of your own, and I enjoy looking at them from time to time. But for you couple who don't whats up??!! Let me know! ByeLove Andrew Bennett <33
Hello everyone. I went to church tonight and along came BV.. Its fine. I see him as just a friend now, if that. But I will tell you I learned, well not learned, maybe got a reminder about trust. Trust is defined in the dictionary as a firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing. Trust is something many people take for granted today. In my eyes trust should be earned, just as respect should. However you do have to give people chances to earn your trust. Maybe you start off small, and grow. From borrowing a little money, and eventually going to things like deep dark secrets you have. Trust is the basis of any relationship; it is everything. Withought trust you have nothing. I have decided to make myself more trust worthy, and trust in the Lord more. I need to trust that He will do the right thing for me and that He will do me right, no matter what. It is His word I shall try and follow, and it is His book I shall try to live by. It is going to be hard, and very difficult, but I think I can do it. It is a lot harder trying to be good than being bad. Anyone can be bad, it takes two seconds; however it takes time to make sure you do the right thing. You may actually have to THINK. But today I leave you with this, if you cant trust anyone, should they trust you?Love Andrew Bennett <33
Okay guys.. when I tried to go to Gay Andy's blog it says its not there anymore? How long has this been like this.. and is this happening to you and does anyone know anything about this?? PLEASE HELP OMG. I use to look at his blog everyday EVERYDAY and I stop for a week or so and its GONE! AHHHHH... I hope its not really gone HELP! Love Andrew Bennett <33
Hello faithful followers! I am happy to say that today I have been reborn as a new me. I have seen the path I shall go on and what I should do. BV is now just a friend. I see that it will never really work out even though thats what I want. I am fine. I see him as just a friend now. I hope it will stay this way. I really do. Maybe I can find someone else to love. I asked a girl to prom this year.. she is happily thinking about it. I can't wait for prom to come. i think it is going to be so much fun. At my school we have a junior senior prom. Idk what it is like everywhere else, but that is what we have. I may join a club or start volunteering for something to help out my community. I think that would be a great idea. I really needed to get my mind off of BV for at least today, which is what I did. I did cry a little bit, but I am fine now. I see what I need to do. Stay friends and that is it. Not expect anything or get my hopes up on anything and everything he says, even if it was like the comment he said the other night that I was his TRUE boyfriend. He didn't really mean it though. :/ whatever. I think I am done being more than friends, but less than together. Just friends, or together. Those are the choices for him, and just friends is the answer.. Good. I need to find someone else I can be with. I will make this happen soon I hope, whether it be guy or girl.. I don't know yet, I guess we will see. Well by for now..Love Andrew Bennett <33
My feelings with BV go wayyy beyond just sex. They are emotions after emotions with him. I may want sex but love and emotions come FIRST.. I love him. I really do but he will never realize what I could do for him or what I would do for him. he doesn't know how good I would be with him. How Good I would treat him or what I would do. Litterally I would cut off every one of my fingers one by one to be with him. I would die to save his life. I would shoot myself in the head if that meant he could live longer. Right now I am having issues obvioulsy and I just told him I need a few days to get back to who I was. I am so hurt and so sad and mad and he knows how I feel. He can't do anything about it. He is "straight" yeah.. so whatever. I really don't give a crap anymore. I wish I could go back in time and never meet him. If I had never met him I wouldnt be so messed up in the head and I would be normal again. Love Andrew Bennett <33
So now I am pretty much going to be done with him. I am fed up with all that crap. I can't deal with him anymore and he is just pissing me off. I am DONE with him 100%. I don't even know if I can be his friend. It hurts too much usually, but now its just starting to piss me off a lot. I think I need to be done at least for a while. I need my own space for a couple of days to think things through. I need him to not talk to me or anything for like 3 whole days. I can't do it anymore. I can't. I just can't. Sorry man Love you but you know what I need from you and what I want from you but I can't have it, and I am not blaming you because its really not your fault that much, except you screwed with my head and played with my heart.. but other than that you did NOTHING wrong. I will always love you just know that, but I can't do it anymore. Sorry.. :/ Love Andrew Bennett <33
So ahh yeah... ok. Last night BV came over again. Then he was going to sleep over CT's house, my neighbor, all three of us are good friends, because my mom wasnt going to let him sleep over here. So He slept over there and I hung out over his house last night from about 9:30 to 2am. And then I went home and went to bed.. Oh yeah. On the bus friday afternoon I wasnt paying any attention to BV, he was sitting next to me, and he was like in a winey voice.. Buddy!! I love you!!.. And it was so cute.. lol. But he has been messing with my head lately more. i think he is thinking about a "relationship" maybe but I cant be certain. He is still talking to his ex gf who he is "in love with"... NOT. He doesn't know what love really is. I do, I love him. But anyway.. we spent Friday night and Saturday night together.. until he went home at 930 friday and then last night i went home at like 2am from CTs house. We had fun hanging out and watching a movie... blowing up condoms.. it was fun.. haha.. but anyway.. Church was good this morning. My mom and BV's mom finally met and talked. They like each other so thats good. Now my mom says she has no problem hanging out.. Which is gooooooood! But I am starting to look at girls more than I use to.. I don't know. I think I may still be confused and not really know what I like.. I don't know, but I won't find out by just sitting here. :/ I don't know. I love BV a lot.. but i am afraid of never being able to be with him... I don't know I guess I will have to wait for time to figure it out.. I got to go now..Love Andrew Bennett <33
Okay guys. I am so sorry I havent been blogging at all the last week. My internet has been down! Something big happened one day, but thats about it. Me and BV hang out just about everyday, CW came over one night, and here comes the BIG thing. One day on the bus an ex friend of mine SV, freaked out on BV for NO REASON AT ALL. She flipped out and crumpled up chips on him and yelling calling him names, then she came at him with her fists held high, so he got up and pushed her down into the bus seat, which was like 6 inches behind her, and she flipped out even more, and screamed more and came at him again with her fists held high, and then he just moved to the front of the bus. But it is whatever because I am not friends with her anymore! But I still love BV and am still in love with him, and we have been becoming a lot closer. He was coming over just about everyday and now he cant because he got into trouble. He got suspended from school because he disrespected his teacher. ERGG... I miss him... lol. Well anyway I have to get ready for work. I will try and blog more, I know it has been a while and I am sorry..Love Andrew Bennett <33
Hello. Some of you may have questions about my brother. His name is Craig. He is 25 years old and he has an addiction. He is very agressive when he is high. He is also in the military. He has a problem and he has admitted it. He lives in Connecticut. He use to live here in North Carolina with me and my mom and then he went over seas to Afghanistan and came back and moved to Connecticut (closer to my whole family in Ma). I love him very much, however he is having trouble. He smokes a lot of pot and has recently been snorting pills. He says thats all he is doing, however I know that pills do not make you as aggressive as he has been. There could be many other factors contributing, such as his fathers death, (many years ago), (we have different fathers) his divorce, or his recent break up with his girlfriend, and a new girlfriend who are having and I quote "relationship problems". He needs to find the Lord, however he is unwilling to do so. He does not accept the fact that there is a God and he does care.. and I would think that seeing what has happened with my grandmother would show him that. I guess it didn't do anything for him. Also, kind of exciting, I saw my old guidence counselor at the hospital in Massachusetts. (not the hospital that my grandmother was at, a different one. We went there because my mom had been there for many more days than I had been and needed medication that she takes from a car accident many years ago. It was good catching up with her, I havent seen her for many years.. about 5 years. Anyway I have to go now... But I will probably talk to you guys tomorrow! ByeLove Andrew Bennett <33
