Some of you may have read one of my latest post and was wondering exactly how I was feeling twards BV still. Well, I still love him, and I would still be with him if I had the chance. I know it is dumb to follow a dream that seems will never come true, but there is still a chance in my head that it will come true. I think with my heart, not my head and I need to stop doing that. i am all for following your heart, but when nothing is going as planned and it seems to not be working, I think it is time to stop. For those of you who don't know, which none of you do because I haven't said anything yet, BV admitted that we were once "together". He did, but the thing is no one knows when it was "official" and when it ended. There was no going out and no breaking up in words, but it happened. He admitted it to me. I still am in love with him, and every new person i seem to meet does not measure up to him. I dont know why, but it just seems like he is "the one", We are perfect together, except for the one thing. Also, interesting he told me he, and I quote, "I need to be straight". Which was very interesting to me. Not saying he is straight, saying he needs to be straight. I believe we could work together, but I guess he doesnt want to. We are soul mates. I am sure of that. But it doesn't seem to work. I will always love him and he knows he will always be mine. And he will, forever be mine. He even agreed. But to sum it up.. I love him with all of my heart and I will always. Talk again soon.
Love
Andrew Bennett <33
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
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All relationships are complicated. It would seem this one is even more so. Wanting to be straight is tough, especially if BV is admitting to himself he is gay or bi. I'm sure he is worried about the fallout of coming out, or feels pressure from home or friends to "conform" to someone's idea (perhaps even his) of "normal".
ReplyDeleteBe friends. I don't know why your mom hates him so, I may just be forgetting an earlier post or two. But that is another obstacle you need to get over - you don't need the police there every time you get together.
Peace <3
Jay
Remember Gay Andy's blog? He was and still is hot for Rike. He has a new blog
ReplyDelete-http://andy8teen.blogspot.com/ but is not taking comments yet. So don't think you are the only one with heart-ache that won't go away.
-I told you I am a retired gay guy, and I come from a time when I 'needed to act straight'; no such thing as openly living as a homosexual person back then. This is a bitterness that I will take to my grave. Will BV end up marrying a shrew and later in life think about the one he let go so he could be 'respectable' in straight society? I say keep him for your good friend on the condition he stays on the right side of the law and stays away from addictive substances. A 'bad' boy can take you down with him and this is what your mother is worried about. You can be a good influence on him, and a true friend is a treasure. bfn - Wayne :)