My trip

Okay Hey everyone. I can't wait to take my trip to see my family this thursday. I really need the time off work and I really need to see my family. My grandpa is really doing bad, honestly this will probably be the last time I see him. He doesnt have much time left. He is getting blood transfusions every week. I will miss him greatly. But, on a good note, me JH and this kid from work BR were supposed to be moving in together, but we decided to wait until the end of the summer so we could save money because it is slow in the off season. I think it is a good idea. My mom has a job interview Wednesday and I am super excited about it for her. I really hope she can get this job because the one she has right now she hates. If she does get this job, and her and my step-dad do get divorced, like they are supposed to, then she will be moving out to Kinston NC. I wish the best for my mom. No news on love for this guy. Still just living life and waiting for love to find me.. Havent talked to BV in FOREVER.. its been a while. but I have good days and bad days, mostly good ones. Ive been working so much that I havent had time to think about anything other than work lol. But time to get some sleep.. I have to get the house in order tomorrow and then off to work.. again. Maybe I will hit the beach if it is nice out, we will have to see. Until next time... Love Andrew Bennett <33

Party!

Ok. JH's 21st bday party was great. We all (about 15 maybe more idk) met at work and got apetizers and drank, not me.. im 18.. but then, even before we left to go to the bowling alley, JH and my works owners daughter, CJ, were pretty much wasted. And then they drank more at the bowling alley, and both of them threw up haha. JH actually made it to the bathroom, but cj didnt. JH is a champ though she came out of that bathroom, ready willing, and able to keep partying and bowling. HAHA I love her! Great times. Also, here is a great song I have fallen in love with. Enjoy! Love Andrew Bennett <33

Sobbing in the past

Resently I have been thinking about him.. you know. BV. I NEVER talk to him, and mostly its my doing. I have the oportunity to talk to him, but i dont. I dont want to get trapped into that old feeling of love and, not being able to have. I have recently been wearing his jacket the last two days, when it is cold at night. I miss him SO much. SO MUCH! I can't wait to see him. I still love him, and miss him at moments. I don't really know what to do with myself. Please help. I havent been able to meet anyone new, and it still hurts not being able to be with him inside. Tonight I have had nothing on my mind but him, wearing his jacket and sobbing. I really don't know what to do. I would do anything and everything in order to be with him. even if it ment living in a cardboard box the rest of my life. I really would. I dont know if that is just me being stupid, or not. But the one other person I could be with sees me as a "friend". i am stuck in the FRIEND ZONE. I need help i think. maybe I will seek a theropist. I don't know. :( sad for the night, thinking of the past, and crying myself to bed. Goodnight..Love Andrew Bennett <33

My days off

HEY! I hope everyone is doing well. I am. I had two days off and I am at the end of them. Nothing really exciting but I went and saw 21 jump street yesturday with my mom and it was REALLY FUNNY. I recomend seeing it. It was so funny. But, anyway it has to be a crappy day today and yesturday, never fails. Life is mellow. My brothers girlfriend alsmost had her baby yesturday. i can't wait to go in May to go see my family. I love them so much and miss them. Other than that, really nothing is going on. my life is boring right now. OH JH's 21st bday party is sunday night! can't wait to go! Love you all! Love Andrew Bennett <33

Another day at the workplace

Today was just another day at the workplace. BORING as usual. But, I am getting loads of hours now lol. It is great in that aspect. My life is boring now, no school till august and just working for now. I am making the trip to Massachusetts on May 10th and will be home on the 16th. I get to see my new nephew, Carl, and I will be his only blood uncle. I am excited! He is going to be born on May 8th and I cant wait. Congrats to my brother and his lovely girlfriend! Oh, by the way, just in case any of you were wondering, my dad is the only one who still doesnt know about me being... mostly gay. Honestly I am still not sure 100%. And being 18 now, i would think I would know by now, so, is it possible to be Bisexual? Many others say no.. its not. But I dont understand that. I dont see anything wrong with loving and embracing other people, no matter what sex, race, or background is.. so. I ask, what do you think, HONESTLY! Love Andrew Bennett <33

AHHHH

Okay, a lot of people were like, its not that bad... HAHA yes it was. It sucked. To get all four surgically removed from my skull sucked. They still hurt and they gave me percocets. I slept most the last 3 days but today I am feeling a little bit better. I know I said I would blog alot but the pain was just too bad. I was so weak, I barely ate anything. The last 3 days i ate a little bit of oatmeal, some ice cream, and some chicken noodle soup and one cup of yogurt. That is what I usually eat in 1 day, I ate in 3. I have lost 7 pounds and i am really weak, but today I am hoping it will get better. But.. TTYL! I am going to go back to bed now probably... BYE Love Andrew Bennett <33

Wisdom

Okay. So tomorrow I get my wisdom teeth pulled. UGH dreading life after that, but hey better to get it out of the way now. JH is taking me in the morning. we have to be there at 815 am and.. geeze thats a little early for me haha. I havent woken up at 7 in MONTHS. But anyway, I will post, i have the next 4 days off work so I will post during recovery! Love Andrew Bennett <33

VERY IMPORTANT!

Okay. I came across this video on facebook and it is very important. Please watch this and let me know what you think. You can also sign a petition at thepetitionsite.com and search kony. Thank you! Love Andrew Bennett <33

YAY but ugh... at the same time.

Okay. How is everyone doing? I am doing okay, but bad. Remember how my best friend moved to NYC, well, SHE IS BACK!! WOOHOO!!! okay. I am super excited to see her. And she just got back last night. The ugh part is my teeth. They still hurt. I went to the dentist and apparently HERE COME MY WISDOM TEETH! Loud and in charge. The pain is unbarable. The Dr. prescribed me 800mg of Ibuprophen, but it is not working. So I tried to go to the urgent care center and THEY ARE CLOSED FOR THE SEASON. What kind of crap is that. Closed for the season, and urgent care place is closed. WOW. So people are just supposed to suffer. LOVE IT. But I am going next monday to get all four of them out. I had to take off 5 days of work. It is going to hurt bad. I hope not, but I bet it will. Well, thats all for now. I will keep you posted. Oh and also I start college in August. I was going to start in May but I have a trip in may to go see the fam and I cant afford to miss the time. Love Andrew Bennett <33

Its been a long time..

hey. How is everyone? I am doing well. Still no luck in that department called love, but I have my whole life ahead of me for that. BV is still in VA, hasnt come back yet, but when he does I will see to it we hang out. I already told him that. Anyways.. still living my life. Oh.. I got a new cat.. idk if I already said that but if I didn;t I did! Nothing else really going on. Thats why I havent blogged in a while. I graduated High School. GLAD. So Glad. Now, its off to college. Still have to go take the placement test and stuff.. but I will get it done. Also, my mom is going to get a divorce and we might be moving to florida.. We will see. Oh and I have the worst tooth ache ever. I have to make an apt with a dentist. ASAP. Well, thats all for now. I will try and blog more! Thanks!Love Andrew Bennett <33