Sunday, April 22, 2012
Sobbing in the past
Resently I have been thinking about him.. you know. BV. I NEVER talk to him, and mostly its my doing. I have the oportunity to talk to him, but i dont. I dont want to get trapped into that old feeling of love and, not being able to have. I have recently been wearing his jacket the last two days, when it is cold at night. I miss him SO much. SO MUCH! I can't wait to see him. I still love him, and miss him at moments. I don't really know what to do with myself. Please help. I havent been able to meet anyone new, and it still hurts not being able to be with him inside. Tonight I have had nothing on my mind but him, wearing his jacket and sobbing. I really don't know what to do. I would do anything and everything in order to be with him. even if it ment living in a cardboard box the rest of my life. I really would. I dont know if that is just me being stupid, or not. But the one other person I could be with sees me as a "friend". i am stuck in the FRIEND ZONE. I need help i think. maybe I will seek a theropist. I don't know. :( sad for the night, thinking of the past, and crying myself to bed. Goodnight..Love
Andrew Bennett <33
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Hey Andrew, I've been reading your blogs for a long time and I find it very interesting. Especially when you wrote about your feeling toward BV. It is because I see myself in you. My situation is different, but my feeling is the same. I just don't know how to express it. I really hope that BV will apperciates your love and everything you would do for him.
ReplyDeleteYou don't need a therapist Andrew; you are just a little lovesick and you have lots of company. Do contact BV and keep him as your good friend at least. Same for your other friend, cos sometimes friendships will turn into love or introduce you to a love possibility. Sometimes losing a good friend hurts just as much as losing a lover. Staying in circulation and expanding your circle of friends is your best bet, keeping in mind that people can be jerks at times. Yeah love hurts but let time pass and you will get over it. Best not to dwell on things too long; get out, keep occupied and enjoy life. - Wayne (hugs)
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